The 2-year-old daughter of a country star who lost her battle with cancer is learning to live without her mother.
In his latest blog post, Rory Feek explained that Easter was harder than he anticipated. He lost his wife, Joey Feek, 40, to cancer earlier this month.
“I can’t help but think of my bride today,” wrote Rory. “What it would mean to her to share Easter this year with our two-year-old. It would be so, so special.”
He said their daughter, 2-year-old Indiana, hasn’t asked for her mom since she passed away.
“It’s almost as if she hasn’t noticed that she’s not here. And that is so sad… and oh, so wonderful – all at the same time,” wrote Rory.
He said Indiana is at peace with her mother’s death, because Joey prepared her for it.
“When we first got to Indiana in late October, Joey was Indy’s whole world. Everyone else was… well, just everyone else. Including me. She loved her mama so much and all she wanted was to be with her, beside her or in-sight of her. But in early November, when Joey started to realize that there was a good chance that she might not beat her battle with cancer, she made a decision…’he must become greater and I must become less.'”
He said Joey slowly weaned herself away from Indiana, and allowed Rory to take her place.
“I still remember the day a few weeks later when I was sitting on the couch near Joey’s bed and Indy was playing on the floor at my feet and Joey looked over at me and said, ‘she needs you now… ‘. I looked at Joey and saw the look on her face and knew what she meant, and I wanted to cry. But she just smiled and said, ‘…it’s best this way honey’.”
Rory said he’s still amazed at his wife’s selflessness.
“Who does that? Who has that kind of strength and character? Not me, that’s for sure. I would’ve taken the low, easy road… the one that served me more. I would’ve tried to make the ties with our baby stronger and her love for me deeper so that she wouldn’t forget me… and in the end, probably left our baby wrecked with grief over the loss of the one person she loved and needed most. But not Joey. She let Indy fall more in love with me…and less in love with her. She carried the pain on her own shoulders, to try to keep it off of mine. And even more so, off of Indy’s.”
He said though Indiana doesn’t quite realize what has happened, he said he can’t wait for the day he’s able to remind Indiana about her mother. He hopes to share with Indiana the photos and videos he collected in her mother’s final days.
Rory and Indiana visit Joey at her grave everyday.
“And our little one plays in the grass beside the flowers. Listening. ‘Talking’ with her hands,” wrote Rory. “And for a little bit, we’re a family again. Indy is on Joey’s lap and the world is right.”